Maya and the Devil

This is a story about a woman who lost her heart and a man she truly ever loved. Every evening she watched the sunset and stared blankly at the space looking for answers. Always wanting to be alone, tears fell easily as she thought about him. If only pain could be measured in words for it pierced her heart and left her a little less living every day. Her friends worried about her as she had stopped smiling. There wasn’t even a faint hint of the woman she was earlier. Almost like a stone, she went through her day. Every evening you could find her though waiting for him. He was thousands of miles away and yet at every slight whisper she turned to see if he had finally come for her. He never did because he never loved her. The day she realized this, she decided to give up. With trembling hands, she decided to take the plunge into the darkness forever.

Just as she was about to, someone pulled her back. It was dark and she couldn’t figure out who he was. Before she could say anything, he said, “Don’t run away from the pain, Maya. I can give you a way out. You have loved too much already and a soul mate doesn’t exist. Love is an illusion. Let it go. I can offer you a deal. You will forget all about him. I will take away your heart and turn it into ashes. All I need in return is your body, your complete submission, and I will worship you. But I won’t ever love you. I will begin with slow seduction of your senses and I will give you pain, but of a different kind. The choice has always been yours for only you can choose to give me this gift. Are you ready to be seduced by the Devil and see the dark world of desires? Don’t you want freedom from this pain as he is never going to come for you? You loved him and gave him your all but still you weren’t enough for him. Me, on the other hand, I have lusted after you for an eternity. I know who you are. I see your soul and the shackles surrounding it. You aren’t meant for this world, Maya, and I give you a night to decide”, and just like that he went away without giving her a chance to say anything.

What do you all think she decided to do?


Product Review – Mamaearth Baby Shampoo

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This is not a sponsored post. I am only trying to help fellow mommies like me who are looking out for safe and non-toxic products for their babies. It is Asia’s 1st MadeSafe Certified Brand. I think it’s the need of the hour to use as less chemicals as possible. We have a responsibility towards our children and the environment.

In the past, I had tried various shampoos but nothing suited my daughter’s wavy and curly hair. I came across this product on Facebook. I am already using C3 Face Mask of this brand and decided to give shampoo a try. I will post review of the mask soon too.

It’s available on Amazon and priced Rs 299 for a 200 ml bottle.

Book Review – The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck.

Funny how things work out. One of my friends had came over for lunch. He had bought this book a day before. I knew about the book but never actually made the effort to read it. I asked him to give the book to me as a gift. I felt I needed to read it. Lately life is just a mess or probably I am but something about the book appealed to me. I was hoping for some answers and it didn’t disappoint.

I have never done a book review before but another friend asked me to read this book and forward him the review. Obviously I sent him the review first but decided to share with you all too. I read the book a few days ago but it has stayed with me. It does not teach you things in a traditional sort of way but makes you think. I would suggest not to just go by the title of the book.

It doesn’t ask you to not give a fuck about anything at all but only the important things. We must get out of the entitlement trap. No one is a victim nor does the world revolve around one person. We all go through pain and it’s necessary too. But we should take responsibility for our life and choices we can make. And good values are something we have control upon and we don’t need other people for it. In the end, choose good values like honesty, integrity, commitment, hard work, and so on. It also lists some good books for future reading. If you are looking for making some changes in your life, give this book a read.

A Good Father

He acts like a clown,
Makes a fool of himself,
Get down on his knees,
Attends little tea parties,
All for that one smile,
On his daughter’s face,
And I love him more for it,
The man I married.

A girl’s first relationship with a man is with her father and it decides the course of all her future relationships. It is one of the most basic foundations of her life. I lost my father at an early age and nothing can fill the emptiness. It was also a tumultuous relationship. I looked at my friends adoring their fathers, and somehow I always wanted that for me. But you can’t always get what you wish for. That’s why it gives me great peace to see that my husband is a good father and he always keeps our daughter happy. For her, dad is everything.

The Dance of Maya

She dances in the moonlight,
Wind blowing her hair,
Caressing her face,
Kissing her lips.
Eyes drunk with desire.
She is the enchantress,
And the stars hold her,
In love, in awe.
As she breaks through,
Her own cage,
And the universe witnesses,
The dance of Maya.

The Goodbye Hug

Do you remember the goodbye hug,
And the kiss that lingered on your neck?
The perfume you wore, reminiscent of a drug,
Lipstick stain, just a tiny speck.
Fingers entwined, entangled;
Hours became moments and time just flew.
Words unsaid, forgotten or strangled,
Ironic, I forgot to say I love you.
Eyes refusing to let go,
Yet you couldn’t stay.
I came home with an afterglow,
It felt like a dream, that day. 

I saw a dream

In the dream, I was writing, words flowed freely, and everything made sense. It felt beautiful and I was happy, and smiling. But when I woke up the next morning, I couldn’t remember my dream, any of it. I was hoping the words will come back to me. I kept thinking but nothing, not even a word. But I couldn’t give up because I wanted to feel that happy again. I wanted the feeling back. I don’t know how much time passed, and I kept chasing the dream. I stopped being aware of the real life around me. I was unhappy over the dream, the lost words, and the belief that somehow if I could remember the words again, I will be happy. It never happened but I kept chasing it. Probably, I still am.

You are that dream.

A Mom Who Loves To Travel

Does this look beautiful to you? Of course, it does. But imagine you are a married woman and a mother, and now suddenly you are allowed to travel only with your husband or family. Sounds weird, I know but it’s the truth. Directly or indirectly, on every trip I went on, I have been asked this. So, who is taking care of your daughter? I am tempted to say, ‘my neighbors’, so many times. But that would hurt the sentiments of genuine, curious people I guess.

My husband travels a lot because of his office work both within and outside India. He has never been asked this question. Because everyone assumes it’s the wife back at home. So when I go to travel leaving my daughter behind, I am obviously leaving her with people I trust. Even some of friends will say, why don’t you go travel with your family? I simply can’t take my daughter to mountains. She has motion sickness and some medical issues. I see the judgment in people’s eyes and sometimes it bothers me. They don’t know my story or my struggles. Even if there aren’t any problems, I need my freedom.

Being a mother, my daughter will always come first. I have cancelled many plans for her and will continue to do so in the future too. But what’s the harm in living your life every once in a while? I don’t think it makes a difference in anyone’s life if I travel or not. I don’t care either but I am writing this for women like me out there for whom it becomes difficult to live their life the way they could prior to marriage.

People actually think it’s a compliment when they tell me you are very lucky your husband lets you travel. Lets me! I am married to him but I don’t need his permission. I will discuss my travel plans with him just like every other thing of our day to day life, and we will take decisions together. Family is always a priority but many a times his work comes first, and everyone is okay till the time I am the one making sacrifices. But no one will ask you about them. They only ask about how you manage to travel even with a family. Frankly, it’s no big deal. I pack my bags, and leave. Just like my husband does every single day when he goes to office or when he travels.

There are many travel groups now which cater to exclusive travel for women. I am yet to travel with any of them. I go on group trips with friends, and people I know and trust. That’s the most important thing. I can’t deny the safety issues out there for women. But travel with people who are professional. Build up your confidence, travel knowledge and then you can also go on solo trips.

I am not saying any of this will be easy. But if you really love travel and want to live your life for you, take the first step. I assure you, it’s not selfish. Go travel and discover yourself. You will come back home a happier person, and you will only value your family more. I really hope this article reaches women who need to read this, and I would be glad if this can make a difference in even one woman’s life.

And men who care about the women in their life, gift them the joy of travel.

How we spent Mother’s Day

IMG_20180513_093521.jpgHow we spent Mother’s Day!

My daughter’s school had kept a workshop for parents on Saturday morning for about 2.5 hours. So I couldn’t make any specific plans for Mother’s Day. At the last minute, we decided to go away for weekend at a resort near Delhi.

20180512_172737.jpgIt took us 1.5 hours to reach there. The property isn’t the best but it has a lot of open space, and many activities to keep the kids engaged. We reached there at about 3 pm. Since it was too hot outside, we rested for a while, and decided to check out the property at about 5 pm.
My daughter did camel and horse rides, and enjoyed play time at the kids area. We posed for some silly pictures, and indulged in goofiness. The best part was to see a peacock and following it across the property.

IMG_20180512_181831.jpgThe resort had arranged loud music and dance party at their lawn, which I am not a fan of. We had our dinner, took a walk, and called it a night.

20180512_203812.jpgWoke up early the next morning, and hit the pool. We had it all for ourselves as no one else was there. Then we had breakfast. Post that my daughter had a lot of fun running around, and exploring the place. They have kept a few animals like rabbits, ducks and guinea pigs.

At about 12, we checked out from there, and went straight to my mom’s place. I wanted to eat something cooked by my mom. I was missing it. She made rice for me along with chana dal. After lunch, I was too tired, and went on to sleep. Woke up, had tea, took a picture with mom, and started for home. On the way back, it started to rain just as it should have.

The Mountains Aren’t Calling Anymore

20180505_112347The Mountains Aren’t Calling Anymore

 I never thought I would be the one saying this. I call myself, The Eternal Wanderess, and I am always looking forward to go to the mountains. But on a recent trip to Kasol and Kheer Ganga in Himachal Pradesh, I realized something. We are harming the nature. The mountains and treks have just become picnic spots. There is no responsible or sustainable tourism.

Surely, people are not going to stop from going to the mountains or doing treks. But we can’t play with nature and leave all kinds of trash behind. You can hear loud music blaring everywhere. I felt a sense of disillusionment, there was no peace. Aren’t we going there to connect with the nature? If you are a music fan, you can hear music at low volume too, or better yet use earphones.

The most heart breaking thing was to see people leaving all kinds of trash behind. Everything is commercialized now. Chips packet, bottles especially the mineral water, to even sanitary pads lying in the open. I am not talking about on the way to trek or in the city, but when we completed the Kheer Ganga trek and reached on top. I just could not take the pictures of all the trash lying around. There were so many camps and people there. I am sure everyone saw it.

Where are we going with this? At this pace, we will destroy the mountains and their very essence. I have decided to take a break from mountains as of now. I am going to look for a travel group which believes in responsible and sustainable tourism. If you know any, please help me get connected with them. In the meantime, give this all a thought. If we all make efforts, we can make a difference.